Never Lose Hope…

As many of you that have been riding with me over the years know by now, I am an obsessively private person and almost never ever, share personal pains and struggles that I may be going through. However, today in an effort to step out of my comfort zone and take (what I hope will be) another step in the long and arduous process of healing, I want to open up about the extremely difficult struggle I have endured alone and in silence this past month.

May 2026 was by far the most difficult month I have ever faced in my many years navigating this unpredictable journey we call life. For me this post is a testament to the power of belief and perseverance and is itself evident that I survived and am stronger today than ever before.

Hopefully with all of the courage I can muster, my coming forward with this post will help others that have suffered similarly in the past, in what (for many of us) seems like an insurmountable season of grief and uncertainty.

I’ve always been one that believes it’s best to just rip the band-aid off so here goes…

In the month of May, despite having over 16 plus playlists on Spotify spanning over 500 songs and almost 100 hours of music, Spotify in their evil corporate greed chose to make the one song that I need to function as a productive and creative adult , “Hush” by Gianii unavailable.

ALL FUCKIN’ MONTH!!!!

Needless to say the feng shui of my most sacred and vital playlist was completely thrown out of alignment, rendering it virtually unplayable.

I can not put into words that accurately describe how critical this playlist is to my ability to think, create and simply function in the course of daily life.

Being completely honest I’m really having a difficult time typing this (I'm literally shaking) as I am forced to relive the terrifying moments of the last few seconds of Skillibeng’s “Sexy” ticking by only to fade immediately into “feels good” by Popcaan (also easily one of my favorite songs of all time). Knowing that there is no "Hush" about to fade in and keep the unapologetic freak vibe going.

For the uninitiated this automatic transition seems trivial and meaningless, Anyone familiar with "Feels Good" knows that it too is an "unapologetic freak bop" as well. Unfortunately the incredible void left by the removal of “Hush” is impossible to replace.

It could not simply be skipped over with merely an early injection of “feels good” (great song)!

Sonic timing is everything.

Unfortunately the void left by the sudden and unexplained disappearance of “Hush” caused me to feel intense resentment and anger towards “feels good”. Feelings I’d never felt towards any single song before.

Feelings of anger that it absolutely did not deserve. It was unfair. “Feels Good” literally made every effort to step into the #2 slot and make me “feels good”, and I rejected it time and time again, and for that I am truly sorry.

So to “Feels Good”, Popcaan and all of the hundreds of other songs, artists, bloodcaat Spotify and di greedy likkle labels that depend on my Individual Premium subscription,

I want to say accountability is everything. No song deserves to be treated unfairly simply for moving up a slot due to circumstances beyond their control. They are not the blame for random greys, and deserve our gratitude for stepping in to fill holes in our playlist that they played no part in creating. Long overdue, but thank you "Feels Good"..

I promise that I will take this experience as a learning opportunity, and i will grow from this.

I will be better.

With that said, this isn’t a post about sadness, anger and regret. It is one of rebirth. One meant to remind those out there going through similar struggles with their own playlist’s “greys” to never lose hope.

Why?

Because the power of manifestation is real. I believed every single day that this was a temporary contract dispute or license lapse and that one day my playlist and I would once again be whole, and reunited as one…

Today I am ecstatic to report that “Hush” (as of June 1st) is back on Spotify and my health, mental equilibrium and swagg has been fully restored, and is now in fact stronger than ever.

I and my playlist are living proof that the power of manifestation works, and it can most definitely work for you as well.

So let me just end this by saying, that just because Spotify may throw you an unexpected “grey” when you absolutely least expect it, just know that it is almost always temporary…

Streams and cash are still, and always will be Kingg.

Peace and blessings.

Make Today A Masterpiece!

~ GT